Wednesday, September 28, 2005


I did not tweak this one, I swear. I took it honestly just to see what would happen (that and the questions for this one weren't as obvious as the other one :ob).

You scored as Zoe Alleyne Washburne. The Soldier. You are the second in command, and that is fine. You like a chain of command, but only when the one in charge has earned your respect. Those who earn your love or loyalty will find no one better to guard their back.
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Zoe Alleyne Washburne


River Tam


Kaylee Frye


The Operative


Hoban 'Wash' Washburne


Shepherd Derrial Book


Simon Tam


Jayne Cobb


Inara Serra


Capt. Mal Reynolds


Which Serenity character are you?
created with

Kinda funny that Lynlee and I scored very similarly. ::laughs:: What do you suppose that means? :oD

And as for quoting Firefly, does it have to be quotes from the character you turned out to be or just quotes you liked from the series?

Tuesday, September 27, 2005


Lynlee had some quizzes on her blog that I also decided to take and share the results with:

Friendship: Your inner power is
Friendship! Your friends mean everything to
you, as you do to them. You are generally a
happy, laid back person who anyone can
approach. You love more than anything to make
new friends and hang out with your old ones.
Everyone generally loves you for being such an
awesome, cheerful person. You have heaps of
close friends, and can think of nothing better
to chat on the phone for hours with them, or
hang out with them whenever you can. Youd die
to protect your friends from harm, and are
always there for them, no matter what. Life for
you is just a breeze, with the friends you
have, life is all but perfect. And if you are
ever brought down, like youd do for them, your
friends would just pick you right back up
again, and be there for you no matter what. You
have a positive outlook on life, and people
love to be around you because of your joyful,
bouncy nature. You probably love a good joke
and tease your friends until they are bright
red, but they love you all the same. Good on
you for being so positive! With your attitude,
and all your friends, life for you were usually
be great!
Boy/Girl who will sweep you off your feet:
The guy/girl who feels like the best friend in
the world. The two of you would be able to talk
about anything together. He/She would probably
be your friend first before you fell for them.
((omg, how true was this?))
Your stone/jewel: Emerald
Your power: Friendship. The ability to
make friends with anyone, and to soothe old
rivalry so that peace and friendship upholds.

Your element: Water
A quote that applies to you: Everyone
hears what you say. Friends listen to what you
say. Best friends listen to what you don't say.

What's your inner power?

This one can be tweaked by me because I know all the characters well and know which response is fit for who ((I love this series and can NOT wait until Serenity comes out)), but here is the result I guess I wanted, heh:

You are Inara, the registerred Companion. You are
sexy, sensual and skilled, yet have trouble
admitting to your emotions. You swing both

Which Firefly character are you?

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Good News, Bad News

If you all didn't know, I had another orthopedic doctor's appointment today. I just got back from it actually and am at Roger's apartment until my class at 4:30. Well, like I said, there is good news and bad news. Good being that my foot will not need surgery like he had originally anticipated on my first visit with him four weeks ago. Bad being that I have to wear the boot and continue to stay on a leave of absence from work for another three weeks. ::gags:: This stupid thing is hot and uncomfortable and I'm very ready to get rid of it and go back to work. My bank account is about cleaned out and I'm hurting for money. With gas being so expensive and my drives to school and Roger's place not being short ones, gas money is kicking my ass. I'll get through it though...I shouldn't worry so much.

Monday, September 19, 2005


That would be the class that I am enrolled in on Monday afternoons. Clinical Teaching and Pre-Internship I and then the course number. I am so lost. It is my first real teaching related course and there is all this talk about portfolios that are important and will be carried on until you graduate and you will need them to get a job in teaching because it is the law...but I'm so confused on the make-up of this said portfolio. I'm hoping by the end of this course, or even better if it's by the middle of the semester, that I will have a better understanding on how this works.

I do have good news about it though. It is the first of three internships that I will have to complete over the span of achieving my Bachelor's Degree (hence the "Pre-Int I" thing in the title). I have been placed already and can even start my interning as of next week if I wanted to! Woot! I got placed in Collinsville at a school named Wilson Elementary School on Wednesdays for eight weeks with a Clinical Faculty member named Beverly Craig. Most likely second grade. I'm nervous, hoping it goes well and crossing my fingers.

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Toothaches and PMS week has been a busy and painful one.

--It started Tuesday morning when Roger told me he had a toothache. He was supposed to come to my house that evening after work to stay with me and I asked if he just wanted to go home. He said no, and that he still wanted to come over. Apparently, during the day, his toothache had gotten much worse and came over to my house in extreme pain. My mother and I tried everything under the sun we knew to try to kill the pain long enough for him to sleep so I could take him to a dentist in the morning. Finally something worked (I think it may have been the Tylenol PM) and he went to sleep. Wednesday morning we called around, found a dentist that took his insurance, and made him an appointment. It wasn't until 1pm so we had to keep him occupied so he would not think about it for two reasons: 1) his teeth still really hurt and 2) he really hates all forms of doctors and gets really nervous (I told him that is something he is going to have to get over or we are going to have fights about that). I took him in and waited for close to 4 hours. They had given him something strong (probably morphine) and pulled two wisdom teeth on the right side, top and bottom. He is supposed to go back in a month to get the other two pulled. Anywho, I took him back to my place and he was bleeding pretty freely. I was worrying and freaking out, of course, and my mom helped me to take care of him and get the bleeding stopped. He was loopy and in pain (after the numbness wore off) for the rest of that day, the whole day Thursday, and most of Friday.

--Well...I have two abnormalities that are genetic when it comes to my "time of the month". One of them being what my doctor called Dysmenorrhea, which causes extreme menstral cramping and very heavy flow (I'll go through close to an entire box of 40+ tampons just in one period). The other comes as a part of that, and causes extreme mood swings. My temper rages, I become mega bitch-saying the most hurtful things I can think of at the time for no reason, and then cry for hours because I am really depressed or I hurt someone's feelings by what I said. I've tried medicine for the mood swings, it was created for what used to be called P.M.D.D. (PreMenstrual Dysphoric Disorder), and it was called Sarafem. I still think I have pmdd as well as dysmenorrhea, but I had a reaction that I didn't too much care for to Sarafem and I have just dealt with the effects of my genetic P.M.S. abnormalities. Anyways, worrying and stress can not only hold off the actual starting of my period, but can also compound the cramps and make them much worse. Because I spent the first part of what was starting to be my cycle worrying about my love, the bleeding stopped until he was better and I stopped worrying, and the cramps....Oh my God....I don't think I've ever had cramps this bad. My whole entire abdomen hurts, and was in tears from the pain. Nothing I took helped (Midol, Advil, Tylenol), hot showers and heating pads didn't help, and it was semi-dibilatating. He felt absolutely helpless and to tell you the truth, so did I. The cramps started Friday evening until about 3:30-4am when I finally fell asleep, and I'm still cramping today. Vitamin E, Zinc and Calcium are going into my daily diet from now on, because they are supposed to help ease cramping when used on a regular basis, so we'll see about that.

--So, that was my fun week. All in all, I believe we were/are glad to have had each other to lean on and whine to, to be babied when in pain even if neither one of us could really help the actual matter. He kept telling me he loved me, how much he cared for me, how much he appreciated me, and how much it meant to him that I was there for him. It is really a wonderful feeling to actually be appreciated by someone you love and care about, and it is totally new to me. I've never been appreciated by any of my other relationships. I feel euphoria, even after this painful week. :oD

Sunday, September 11, 2005


--Friday night was a good night. My love took me to Olive Garden for dinner and then a movie afterwards. We saw The Exorcism of Emily Rose. It was actually not a bad movie, we both seemed to like it. We went back to his apartment and watched Exorcist: The Beginning and What Lies Beneath. He fell asleep during The Exorcist and we talked throughout the entire second movie. It was 3am before we went to bed and fell asleep very shortly after settling onto the pillow at about 3:15am.

--Well..I had an irritating day yesterday and poor Roger had to suffer through it with me. So it started with his apartment complex deciding to fix the roof at 7:30-8am Saturday morning. So, neither of us could sleep again until well after Noon. We laid back down after things quieted a bit, and I slept for another 2 hours or so. He couldn't really sleep, so he just laid there while I slept, isn't that sweet? ::grins:: So after I wake up we kiss and cuddle and I found out a very aggrivating and frustrating side affect of Ultram/Tramadol. I hadn't been taking it until Friday night because I hadn't really been hurting that much. For some reason I started hurting pretty badly again and took some then and again Saturday morning. Well...all I have to say is what a man named Paul G. Cogen put it best at saying, "I seem to have a very laid back, 'so what attitude' which is foreign to my normal nature. As well as affecting my sex life. Although I respond naturally, climaxing seems to be out of the question." Roger was very sweet and understanding about it though and just held me while I was very upset. If you've never had that happen leaves very negative feelings in your head like fear of disappointing your significant other, feeling inadequate, dysfunctional, defective...but he reassured me, and told me he loved me again, which I really needed to hear. I guess I'm pmsing too, which doesn't help, so I'll just need to be reassured of some things more often than I usually would. I had a sudden thought and decided to research the side effects of that drug and found some comfort in knowing that it isn't me, and I'm not broken somehow, and there was someone else out there that had felt my frustration and pain. So...I was getting a bit of a sore throat and was itchy from a new shampoo I'd decided to try (I have to be careful with trying new things like soaps, shampoos, and lotions because I can have some pretty fierce allergic reactions), so we decided to go to Walmart to pick up some different shampoo and cough drops for me. After buying what we needed and leaving car wouldn't start. We sat in the parking lot for God knows how long trying to get my car to turn over (it is getting a new ignition switch today after this mess). That was so aggrivating and embarrassing...thanks to my oh so reliable car. You ever have days where you just feel like you don't get a break? He said I handled my high stress and frustration well, which surprized me. I thought he'd run screaming from me when he got a taste of my temper. Yes, it wasn't directed at him...more at myself at first and then my car.

--I'm pretty sure that he's here to stick around for a while. He is so what I have needed for so a way I feel like I'm on such unknown and unfamiliar territory with him. We work things out together, and stay involved in each other's thoughts and feelings. We don't keep things from each other, and feel comfortable with sharing even embarrassing thoughts and emotions. I hope we continue to keep that level of communication, because to me that's important for feuling a long lasting serious relationship. Okay, okay...enough mushy. :o)

Thursday, September 08, 2005


--I had to take a note from E and turn on the verification thing. I'm sorry about that guys. Stinking random stupids leaving nonsense comments. What exactly does my blog have anything to do with someone's genealogy? Gah.

--I'm at Roger's apartment right now, he's at work. The poor boy lives alone and doesn't have some things that you take for granted sometimes. It's hard to cook when there are no spices, almost no pots or pans, not a whole lot to bake with, no dish soap...::laughs:: I guess he just needs a girl's touch to the kitchen. I went shopping yesterday to at least get a baking dish to make dinner in and the stuff I wanted to cook with. My mom said I'm going to spoil him, heh, isn't that a good thing? He spoils me too...he says I'm beautiful...I've never had anyone outside family tell me I'm beautiful and mean it, it's a great feeling, makes me actually believe him.

--I've been having some trouble sleeping lately, and I'm not sure why. I suppose maybe my genetic-running insomnia might actually be catching up with me. I especially have trouble when I'm with Roger. You would think having someone who cares about me and loves me cuddling with me while he sleeps would help me sleep..but no, I just lay there for hours on end trying not to move and wake him up. On the off chance I do fall asleep, I sleep for no more than 3 hours, if I'm lucky, and any slight movement from him wakes me up...and I mean like the wide awake, no-hope-of-falling-back-asleep-anytime-soon kind. It's not his fault I'm having bouts of insomnia, but he feels bad for me all the time. I don't know what to tell him, except that there isn't anything he can do except be patient and understanding (which he has been thus far). Heh, there used to be a time when I was working and on my days off I would not have even dreamed I was up before noon...

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Mushy Stuff

--Things have been going very good for me. Roger stayed the night with me last night at my house, instead of me always going to his. I kept him up until midnight when he had to be up for work at 5am, and then ended up waking him up at 4:30am...I always keep him up too late, talking to him. Whether it be on the phone or in person, I can't seem to let him just sleep when he needs to. I feel horrible when I keep him up so late, but I always seem to do it anyways, heh. I'm a bad influence, that is what I keep trying to tell him anyways and he does not listen. We have still been taking our relationship very slowly, getting used to each other gradually and enjoying every minute spent with each other. I am actually going to go to his house later today when he gets off from work, and I am staying until Saturday. Taking a prolonged visit to see if we can put up with each other for longer periods of time, ::laughs:: Not really, we just miss each other and two days and two nights apart is too long. :o) I know, I'm getting really mushy and sick :oD I'll stop.

--I found out a couple of some very surprizing things that I had no idea about until last night. It's hard to express feelings about them because I do not exactly know how I feel about them. There are two different sets of things that I did not know about, one of which really upset me, the other of which I did not have much of a problem with because I did not see it as wrong considering the circumstances. I'm at a loss for words, if you can believe that. ::Shrugs:: Way to kill my buzz after having an excellent night with my sweetie. Maybe I'm just over emotional, heh. I need to be beaten with a stick sometimes I think. :ob

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Mish Mash

--Well, I spent the night Thursday and Friday nights at Roger's house, came home today (Saturday) at about 730-800pm. We just hang out in his apartment and watch movies or talk, but it's not boring in the slightest. I throughly enjoy his company, as he does mine. Being gimpy makes dating life difficult sometimes, but I'm content just being in his presence, I don't care what we're doing while we're together as long as it is together. He has officially marked me up has his ::winks and grins::, we have both decided and are adamant about not having sex and have behaved as such, and I had a mostly enjoyable weekend. He accidently kicked my foot while we were both lounging on his couch and it hurt quite a bit. I cried, more than once while there actually, and sometimes I just feel like a crybaby. Stupid foot...I didn't want to leave, he didn't want me to leave, heh. Our relationship is progressing slowly, but it is at a pace we both want, we get along really well, we really like and care a lot for each other, and can't seem to get enough of each other for now. :o) It is really nice to be in a relationship where both sides are equal, not just one sided.

--I got a call from a friend that I hadn't spoken to in several months. We've both been busy and trying to keep up with life. We usually see him and his wife and kids on the Fourth, but apparently they both had to work. Hopefully they will come for our normal New Year's Blast. :oD It would be a real loss and bummer if we don't get to see them.

--I'm not quite sure why..but I decided to go through a folder I'd made when a certain friend told me she was getting married and she wanted me to be in it. I kept everything that she would tell me she wanted in her wedding so that I didn't forget a detail. Her and I haven't talked since before June 19th, but I was curious as to what I'd saved. Stupid me...I found some links (please DO NOT leave posts on the guest book) to some of her wedding sites, and cried, mostly the picture and the part towards the middle under "Attendants"...I remember how entirely happy that made me to think about, and how much I truely believed it. Now I've not even a clue if that's still going to happen, what's going on with her and him, how things are...nadda...and all that made me very sad. Maybe I'm just super emotional for some stupid reason, who knows.