Sunday, June 29, 2008

RIP Ginger

Our kitty, Ginger, died today of what the vet said he thought was heart failure. She was vomiting a greenish-yellowish bile and he said that was an early sign. It was quick, and definately not painless...she died screaming. My heart is breaking...but I know there wasn't anything we could do. We did the best we could for her and with her.



Thursday, June 26, 2008

Okay So..

Good news: Bella is feeling better. She's finally eating, what I would consider, a decent amount and has gone back to the little purrbox I brought home. She's finally starting to put on a little weight and is moving around the house better. I'm not forcing the Pedialyte on her but still having to shove 2 pills and a blue gunk on her until sometime next week. I thank my lucky stars and hope that she doesn't suffer long term like Sugar does. We don't know what we'll do next time we want a kitty, but adopting has not ever been a pleasant experience for me. Everytime we pay someone to let us take a kitty, they give us a sick kitty. Everytime we've just taken in homeless kitties roaming the streets or gotten one free through handouts, we get healthy kitties that live for 15-20+ years. I guess next time we'll ask around if anyone knows of recent litters or paruse the newspaper.

So! Now that that worry is out of the way, it's time for a new one...

Bad News: My mom lost about $1,200 a week worth of clients, so a good chunk of my work load was cut today. The economy is so bad that clients are dropping because no one's buying houses, so until the economy and real estate picks back up, my mom's business, and therefore my job, is threatened. Couldn't have come at a better time, right?

We found out that we are getting our A/C compressor under warranty, so that part won't cost us to replace. I still don't know how much we're going to have to dig up, or when my uncle will be able to get to it, but I'll keep updated on that.

I guess we're making up for last year being such an incredible year. It's gotta get better at some point, right?

Monday, June 23, 2008

From Bad to Worse...

Okay, so, a short update...

Bella's not much better, I only say not much because I don't have to force feed her food. I do still have to give her 3 meds a day and force Pedialyte on her...She is still very lethargic, still has diarrhea, and doesn't eat very much at all..She is nothing but skin and bones, and looks like a little starving rat walking around my house. It breaks my heart to watch her, but I follow her around the house like a mother hen.

And this is short because...We now have no A.C. Oh now my computer will be off, for fear of over heating. It is currently about 90 in my house, and only worse during the day. The power surges we've been having fried our A.C.'s compressor and we're trying to find out how much it will cost to replace...We've been told, by more than one Heating and Air guy (we saw 3 today), that it will be cheaper to just replace the whole unit.

Anywho...hope everyone else is having a better time of it...

Saturday, June 21, 2008


Bella is very sick, so if you all don't see me for a few days again, I'm dealing with her. I told the lady that I didn't care what it took, or if it cost me anything, I wanted to get her well, so she's having to be force fed this prescription food that's predigested and the equivalent of Pedialyte as well as like three different types of medications. It's been very tough emotionally to see her so sick, and very stressful. I was so afraid to go to sleep last night, because I just knew I'd wake up to a dead baby.

Anywho, I'll try to pop in and update when and if she starts feeling better...hopefully soon.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

It's Decided

We decided to call her Belladonna, because it went with my theme thing and wasn't a food or technically a spice (Because Roger didn't want her to be named after food or a spice). You can have Sugar, Ginger, or Belladonna in your tea! :oD We call her Bella or BD for short.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

New Baby NoName

It seems that when I'm really down in the dumps, a new baby finds me. When my first love smashed my heart into a thousand pieces, Sugar found me. When I was dealing with one of the toughest fights I've ever had with a person who I thought was a friend, Ginger found me. Now, that I'm having to deal with one of the worst experiences of my life...a new baby found me. We had been looking, since I made the post "Is Three Too Many?" but we just couldn't find one that called out to me.

I was shopping with my mother at PetSmart, because she wanted to replace her pond plants that didn't make it. Roger wasn't with us, so I had no intentions of bringing home a baby, but it just happened. She called to me through the window, and when the lady handed her to my sister and me, she purred. She purred and purred all day yesterday, except for when she'd finally drift off to sleep, and then the second she woke up, she was purring again.

She doesn't have a name yet, because she hasn't told me what it is. It took several days for Ginger to tell me her name, so I'm not worried yet. Sugar and Ginger aren't liking the new addition too much, lots of cussing and fit throwing, but they'll get over it. Here are some pics of her, she is so cute!

Thursday, June 12, 2008


I haven't made a post in a long time for several reasons..

One being the sinusitis I've had for over a month. I've been on three antibiotics (finishing up the last one tomorrow *crosses fingers*), and dealing with all around yuckiness.

Another being my Internet connection has been so flaky, I never know when it's going to work for me and when it isn't.

And the big one being that I have been struggling internally for some time now with the family turmoil. You know the saying, "if you can't say something nice..."? Well, I had absolutely nothing nice to say, and still don't really. Mostly...that I'm disappointed.

I tried reaching out one last time by sending a birthday card. I wasn't hateful or mean in any way. As a matter of fact, everyone was surprised that I was as calm as I was. I just said that I was yet again giving another example of how much the family cares...but I ended up being the bad guy again because I was so uncaring and hurtful. How do I know that? Because I heard it through the grape vine...not even the decency to tell me straight from the horse's mouth. So I have been able to mostly move past that, because I've tried, more than once to fix it. I was upset, for my own reasons (no one else's), and after that final reach out I've decided no more...Burn me once, shame on you...burn me twice, shame on me...I'll be damned if it happens again.

The part that does upset me the loss of what I thought was a best friend..We used to hang out, do stuff together, see things together, confide in each other...but now, it's only guilt trips, accusations, anger, resentment, avoidance, unhappiness and depression. I really miss the person she used to be, not who she is now. I tried talking to her, but all I got was headbutting. We both feel very strongly about where we stand, and we just hit a stalemate.

I had a dream about her...and it wasn't yelling and screaming from either party. I can handle dreams like that, because I've had several like that and they don't really affect me; however, this dream did affect me. It was what my subconscious desperately screams for, and it just made me cry because I know it just won't happen.. should get used to it, but you never do.